Yesterday evening I completed a 22-hour weekend course to become a Usui/Holy Fire III Reiki Practitioner.
How did I feel about that? Pretty amazed actually, but also a bit skeptical, to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, I totally believe that energy is real and that energy healing works. My hesitation was more to do with MY ability to perform this “magic”…Then I remembered my coach’s words, “Leave your ego at the door”, and I reminded myself that I will not be the one doing the healing, it will be the reiki energy working through me. Even as I write these words, I am doubting myself. It is harder than you think to leave your ego “at the door” when you seem to have spent a lifetime taking responsibility for everyone and everything! Intuitive reiki depends on us leaving that ego behind.
One of the takeaways from this incredible course was the understanding that we each have an Authentic Self and a Culturally Created Self. The expectations of our parents, our teachers, our friends, social media (the list goes on) ALL have an impact on how we are/look/behave. They also have an impact on our expectations of ourselves. For example, in my new work as a death doula, I want to provide everything that my families could need at a very vulnerable time in their lives. With that in mind, I have spent hundreds of hours and many more $$$ on multiple courses over the past 6 months. So, am I a well-qualified death doula? Absolutely. Are all of these certificates I have collected a reflection of my Authentic Self? Hmmm. Yes, the skills I have learned will no doubt help me to support my clients, which I’m grateful for, but the nature of this work feels so right for ME that I must not get too distracted by taking endless courses.
I truly believe that I’m in the right place at the right time to be of service to families who need me. What is key to working with families during a vulnerable time? That I have their trust.
Am I worthy of their trust? Yes I am.
By taking more and more courses to develop more and more skills, will I be more worthy of that trust? No.
I have to remember to trust in myself as much as they trust in me.
Am I glad that I took this reiki training course? Absolutely!
Thank you @lindsaymaementorship
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